In my next two blogs, I will talk about two main points which we need for an authentic Christian conversion and lifestyle.
Faith – faith is much more than just surrendering completely to someone or something with uncertainty – it is the acceptance of a deep, deep pain that you learn to cherish and admire. Years of countless moments of impossible frustrations; dead-ends on roads you spent ridiculous amounts of time in pursuing; deceptions in areas where your absolute trust was the only factor keeping you steady. Faith is reflecting on all of that, and completely owning it as part of who you are, what you have become, and where you are going.
It’s not only the action of surrender but the empowerment in a moment of time where you embrace the fact that you have absolutely no control over a single moment but that you have absolute control over how you will respond to it, and that even in your most broken state, you will be okay after all is done. It’s being absolutely and totally aware of how hard and painful and horrific the future could be – yet working as hard towards it as you can.
Faith is not a person, place, event, or period in time in which surrender and acceptance simply saying I have faith. It’s also not a feeling, it cannot be measured by emotions and much less autosuggestion. It’s a choice, a constant choice, to be as you are and love as you can and do your best even when nothing makes sense. It’s knowing that you’ll be okay if your lover decides not to love you anymore; if you fail badly, that if you are all alone and stuck and confused and shaken by the time of uncertainty ahead of you – you will choose to be okay. And you will be.
Faith will give you the determination to accept the craziness of the task ahead. Faith will make you a person that has no fear in admitting and standing up for what you believe in, a person who that, through the best and worst, through love and rejection, through success and difficulty, through friendship and loneliness – you will pull through.
May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. // Romans 15:13
Claudia Navichoque – Writer, unparalleled love