I was starting to write yet another depressing post about how overwhelming life has been these past four months but right when my husband got home from work he stopped me from writing to tell me how much he loved me and even though It’s been a hard pregnancy to always TRY to think about the good of it. I quickly deleted my previous blog post and started to write this one.
The truth is, being pregnant is not so easy…at least not as easy as remembering to take your prenatal vitamins. I’ve been so wrapped up with how exhausted I’ve been that I forgot how privileged I am to carry this growing child of mine without health complications. No lie, these past four months I have had little to no spiritual growth in my relationship with Christ and like any another relationship you know how important it is to reconnect constantly.
Interestingly, while I try to handle gaining three pounds every week without wobbling over, I felt an overwhelming urge to draw closer to God. Thank goodness he called me to Him because Lord knows that with this energy that is left in me I would not make it to a small intimate conversation I had with him this week.
I actually felt His presence as I spent time praying and reflecting on my baby and my future as a mother of two. It’s comforting to hear His voice in a time of need and feel His presence when you’re feeling your worst.
That moment allowed me to have a more gracious attitude about my pregnancy and mood.
Sounds so easy peasy right? Not exactly if you’ve been there and done that. But God does call us to be content in any circumstance (even morning sickness!), which means choosing to focus on the reasons we have to be grateful, even when it’s tempting to be in the worst mood.
Now all I have to do is pray that I’m this positive for the next 5 months. Easy-peasy right? Ehh we’ll see.
I have this prayer card in my wallet of Saint Gerard Majella, the “Patron Saint of Motherhood that a Priest gave me when I was pregnant with Max I love to reflect on this prayer. As a Christian Mom, my goal is to raise children of God and lead them to the light.
Prayer: O Great Saint Gerard, beloved servant of Jesus Christ, perfect imitator of your meek and humble Savior, and devoted Child of the Mother of God: enkindle within my heart one spark of that heavenly fire of charity which glowed in your heart and made you an angel of love. O glorious Saint Gerard, because when falsely accused of crime, you did bear, like your Divine master, without murmur or complaint, the calumnies of wicked men, you have been raised up by God as the Patron and Protector of expectant mothers. Preserve me from danger and from the excessive pains accompanying childbirth, and shield the child which I now carry, that it may see the light of day and receive the lustral waters of baptism through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.
One thing is very clear to me now and that is that through any circumstances he is my complete strength.
Jenyfer D. Navichoque – Writer, unparalleled love