So, I finally get in the room and the vibes are good. I feel comfortable. I stated my sins and ways in which I have offended God, my family, and friends. I usually start with the ones that are bigger just because if I wait and hold back, it’ll be harder for me to bring them up later. I’ve learned to just own up to my actions and recognize that what I have done is wrong in offense to God.
*So just a little tip for confession: start with the bigger/worse sins because
A) it’ll make your confession easier and smoother
B) you’ll feel better. You’ll have that heavy weight off your shoulders. *
During my confession, Father Kyle made sure I knew that God is very very loving. He told me that he is forgiving. He is here for us to help us grow and forgive us of our mistakes. He loves all of us the same. He put the same love in me as He has with you. We were all made beautifully unique. His message was the reminder I needed.
The main point that I want to get at with this amazing confession session I had was how he tied it to the Gospel that day (April 26th) that was a reading from John 3:16-21. And he specifically talked about verses 18-21 which state: “He who believes in Him is not condemned; He who does not believe in Him is condemned already, because he has not believed in the name of the only Son of God. And this is the judgment, that the light has come into the world, and men loved darkness rather than light because their deeds were evil. For everyone who does evil hates the light, and does not come to the light, lest his deeds should be exposed. But he who does what is true comes to the light, that it may be clearly seen that his deeds have been wrought in God.”
That is powerful: “everybody who does wrong hates the light and avoids it to prevent his actions from being shown up” (different translation). That applies to many of us today, knowing we have done wrong and are afraid to seek God who is the light. That’s crazy, I mean who wouldn’t want to be in the light with God?! But that’s what happens when we start to flee from the good things God has to offer us, we get farther and farther from the light that we truly need. That was an eye opener for me. Not going to lie, I’m guilty of not always being on top of my things with my faith such as praying and being involved in mass and not making it a priority as I should, but you live and you learn and I definitely learned that God is worth so much more than what I have going on in my daily life. It’s important to take some time out of your day and acknowledge him and show him your love.
I encourage you more than ever to take the big step and participate in this beautiful, rewarding sacrament as soon as you can.
Jennifer Baker – Writer, unparalleled love