Missing My Old Life

I need to learn to be happier. I need to love more. I need to stop complaining. I need to learn how to be more confident. I need Jesus.

 I need him just like he needs me.

I have been having a lot of emotions lately. School is stressing me out. I’m struggling. I’m doubting if nursing is really the major I want. I’m trying to be active. I’m always tired. I don’t have money; I haven’t been called to work. Youth group isn’t the same.

 I miss my friends. I miss my old life in Rome, Ga. I’d be lying to you if I told you I was extremely happy with where I am at.

It is easy to forget that you have a purpose and that God knows what he is doing putting you through certain situations. I know how easy that can be. I have felt lost and alone. It is easy to think that God is not being very nice due to what you are going through and that you feel like you are being punished or something. I have been guilty of not collaborating with my part of the relationship as much as I know I can with God.

But through the struggles I have gone through I have never left God as the last resort. He is the one that immediately comes to my mind when something good or bad happens, and I can’t ignore it, all I can do is thank him and love him more. He knows what he is doing according to the purpose he has for each and every one of us. Having God and accepting him in my life is really important for growing spiritually. It is important to realize that not everything will be gold and glory. God wants us to reach out to him and to let him know that we need him. He does not get tired of us.

Keep praying, and don’t stop just if something doesn’t turn out the way you would like. Trust me, God is listening.

I am thankful for my true long distance friends for they have made a big impact on my life and still to this day are here for me to listen and talk to. Knowing I have them to talk to whenever is really good news and it makes me feel that I am not any less of a friend since I’m not physically with them. I have really got myself some precious treasure with them. Being away from my friends is not easy especially being 12 hours away. But I just want them to know how much I appreciate them, their time and their faithfulness to our friendship. I know that God has blessed me with them, and if he wants I will be back with them soon.

*there is nothing more to be prized than true friendship*- St. Thomas Aquinas

Be happy. Find God. Recognize and accept that he loves you and he needs you. Love yourself and love others. When you are feeling down, look up and call for him. Pray to his blessed mother Mary, and pray the rosary (pray it on the treadmill like me), be thankful and confess. Do not give up on something you really want. Put God first in everything you do, and everything else will follow.

Let nothing disturb you, let nothing frighten you, all things are passing away; God never changes, patience obtains all things, Whoever has God lacks nothing; God alone suffices. -St Teresa of Avila

Jennifer Baker – Writer, unparalleled love


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