So Jesus is such a good man to me, even though I may not realize it at times.
It’s normal to get frustrated and feel stressed out during different situations, but one thing we have to remember is who’s behind our suffering. A few blogs back, I wrote about what the future will hold for me because I was moving away from the town I loved most; Rome. Now that time has passed, so has the way I have seen things.
Change is a scary thing, I would know because I have had a lot of change in my life. And well really during change you don’t know what to expect and that’s where your leap of faith comes in; believing in the unknown, having faith in God when you know nothing else.
I did not want to go through change again, I was satisfied with where I was at, I had to leave so many people I loved, it was hard but it happened.
Since my time here in Texas, I have recovered from surgery, I have applied and have been accepted into Texas Woman’s University, and I have gotten involved with a new youth group at my new Catholic Church, Immaculate Conception.
But, I have failed. I have failed God and I have fallen into temptations that I regret. I haven’t been myself lately and I know why, it’s because I was away from where I found God. Maintaining our relationship during this drastic move was not prioritized, but something brought me back to him. Like I’ve said, God works in mysterious ways. I consciously knew I was doing wrong. It isn’t me to miss Mass on Sundays and it is not like me to miss my daily prayers. But last Wednesday I attended a youth group call A.L.M.A. It was so refreshing to be gathered with young adults again for one purpose; to praise Jesus. And that’s exactly what I needed. To praise and love God. They were so welcoming and I could feel His presence through each one of them. The topic was about standing up for Jesus, and how we are showing people in our lives that he lives in us. It was a wakeup call that I absolutely loved. Coincidence? I think not. God did this for me. He reminded of my mission on this earth. I cannot wrap my head around the thought of Jesus and his love and sacrifice for us all. It truly is a beautiful thing. Another thing I’m super excited about is that on Fridays, the group prays the rosary outside walking around a beautiful little fountain and then to top it off with Holy Hour with Jesus in the Eucharist. I promise you that I am not kidding when I say that going to Holy Hour repaired everything that was broken inside of me. God has filled the emptiness of my heart with his never ending love. I was so happy and emotional to be kneeled in front of him once again.
Jesus is so good to me. I am beyond grateful to have the opportunity to continue following his path and for making new friends to worship and love him with.
I encourage anyone who feels something missing in their lives or if you are just not being yourself to go and visit Jesus in the Holy Eucharist. Talk to him and tell him all your burdens. Be yourself and trust him, he is working in you.
Jennifer Baker – Writer, unparalleled love